Monday, June 23, 2008

Another Funeral

I found out yesterday that another teen from my church died. Arielle was 17. She and her twin sister were in the church choir in middle school. 2 years ago March, Arielle was crossing the street in front of her high school (not waiting for the crossing light) and was hit by a car (travelling approx 45 mph). She was in a coma for a few months and then has been home since. Her dad quit his job to stay home and care for her and work on her rehabilitation. There was brain damage and apparently she had a lot of physical pain. This past week she developed an infection, and Saturday she died. So tomorrow I go to yet another funeral. The Singer again will be singing with many others from the choir that Arielle was in. My heart breaks at the struggles this family has had to face these past 2 years and for the pain they are dealing with now. Death is never easy to deal with no matter how strong your faith. But, the death of a child makes me ask the age-old questions...How could God allow this?...Why didn't God answer the prayers of all those praying for her? I hold tight to the knowledge that God's way are not our ways and that my little brain may never understand the why of many things during this life. I have to cling to my faith that God is indeed all-loving and that he has great love for each of us, as unique individuals. I trust He knows best, while still grieving and still angry that these things happen.
The only 'good' thing about this, is that the Imp is away this week at a retreat and will not feel compelled to attend the funeral. She so wants to believe that life is wonderful and does not want to have to face the sadness of death. She was convinced that James' death 3 weeks ago was going to be her last funeral for a while. She kept saying that Uncle John (my brother) died a year ago and that started a terrible year filled with funerals and that James' death (a week before the one year anniversary of John's death) was to end the year and that there were to be no more deaths of people she knew. I'm with her. Enough already! Not having anyone I know die within the next year would be greatly appreciated.

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